Crazy, all I can think about is getting permission to leave work for a anti war march and rally in Champaign a long long time ago. The first invasion of Iraq was the occasion, no blood for oil was the chant, Champaign Surplus was the job. That was like 91 or so… now 2010 the last combat troops are leaving under the cover of night and Ramadan. Pretty cool, pretty sad. Mostly sad. Shit is still off the guard rail in Afghanistan, and will be for a long time. I just hope people can make it home safely, the rule is generally that they do not. Boo war!
Another moment in personal failure, I love this shit. I’m getting so good at it.

just a couple, so lovely the day has hit me.  I”m in such a chill mode that the approaching ice cream truck song isn’t tensing me up, that would be it! to stop tensing.  I see things in loved ones watched and lived with that tell me this.  There to see for some time, but just now do I get a peek.  Better late than never.  The oil scar is again heavy.  It is just heavy, it will never change, nothing about it will ever breath a light lively breath.  But you know this, Rachel Maddow had a guest on last night, I shame to be lazy and not look it up, you can if your into that deep information type vibe, but uh… yeah, the guest explained plumes of oil, and what the lifetime of the toxic dispergents will be.  This is just fucked.  Its so so much more than the oil literally on animals, and beaches, marshland plants, and well…. all visible anger inducing stuff.  Its the long historical moment changing things that creates dead zones in the sea.  Some life can adapt to these areas, but a very small group of the creatures that would normally call that range of sea home would be able to survive in the air starved water.  But yeah, I hope the Hawks rock Philly tomorrow, go Celts… just can’t get with Kobe (his game is the sickest though).  Had to leave the oil somehow.  Ah, speaking of Maddow, I love her steeze, and the fact that she rocks the elvis look better than him.  Oh, and now that ice cream truck is right outside my building, playing a pretty good song, one I don’t know…. that is cool, but not the volume, i’m not tense about it though, remember.  Current song at the moment, Let the Wold Turn, Death, the beer Modelo.

At about 8:20pm my rice had just started, the beans and spices were also just starting up, at 8:30 I turned off all the light, fired up a couple candles, then started the bath water.  Candle light check of the food, still long way to go, water in the tub is hot hot hot, the minerals I put in the tub are now permeating the air of my apt.  I ease into the water, blow out the candle, and enjoy an long soak in the darkness.  That was the nicest thing I have done for myself in a long time.  I liked the idea of participating in Earth Hour, linking up with others in the world by action, as passive as that action was.  In the tub I did have lots of thoughts about the single life I have been living, you think about a lot during a dark dark bath.  But I came to this feeling that I should be sharing that moment with someone, not just the bath part, but the global action, the household move that was busted.  Dry off, stir the beans, rice is done, only 10 more minutes of the darkness.. and now i’m over it, I want to turn the tv one, sit down and have my dinner.  I wait, eat by candlelight, and enjoy.  Once the hour was up, and the TV was back on, I realized that I hadn’t missed anything, and that the TV should be off more.  Lets just think about that, think about a moment of dark realization.  Wait, I think the tournament games are on today, oh well.  I like to think that the planet was a little darker, or less carbon emitting for that hour, and it was good to be a part of that.  Now to get the green jobs for the hood idea I have in my head out of my head.

which cracked my ass up.  I love the the folks in the big house speak like normal people.  I’m a big time curse worder, and I like to also make up words like worder, you can have it.  Worder!  Worder uP!  So yeah, this Health Care Reform Bill that just got signed into law is a big fucking deal.  In the words of my friend Dylan and Jay Z…. “on the the next one”.

I love that this kid is rocking this message, long overdue, and it really works because the wording is nice, and beats are smoothly rugged.  Smoothly rugged, that is just funny to me.  Been on a break, and back in full effect, much like a Mantronix song.  This might be posted in political blather, but there is no blather about this.